Hatred

The flashback starts.

as you say your sweet words to me.
you take me high too infinity.
and then you drop me down.
easy for you.
enjoy your veil of my stolen hopes.
dreams.
my fantasy.
you took them all.


Congratulations, I hate you - Alesana
"But don't expect me to be happy for you. And don't smile at me and tell me things will work out for me too"
"As you build your dreams on my shattered hopes. I'll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy"
"My envy can't describe how I loathe you for having all the stars. Leaving my eyes to marvel the sky knowing it should be mine. Yet it's you I see wasting the dream that only I deserve. I'll tear off your face to see your smile"

I used to feel that feeling above, maybe now its just a little bit. Feel of anger. Hatred. Loathe. Aversion. of what you have done to me Lady Dutch.

“Throughout life people will make you mad, disrespect you and treat you bad. Let God deal with the things they do, cause hate in your heart will consume you too.” 

-Will Smith-

Thanks God (and Will Smith)! Now I realize that the anger can't solve my problem, beside it can consume me too. For me now, patient and getting close to God is all the answer that I searching for.
Good bye Lady Dutch!